one of e 7 habits..
seek first to understand den to be understood..
but who reallie practice dat habit?
sigh..
im gonna quit sva soon..
afta all e things to happen..
imagine if u were in my shoe..
at e beginning of everything,
i alrdy said i dun wan to be editor..
n in e end,
dey ask me to choose between editor n art director..
if u were given a chance to choose things between sth dat u noe was izzit n wat to do n sth which u dunno abt it at all,
u were sure choose e things dat u are gd at rite?
so in e end i chose editor..
but wrong decision fer me..
e teacher in charge alrdy said i dun nid to be present in every shooting..
but wheneva dey shoot,
dey will ask me to go oso..
so i juz went..
nvm abt dat..
den now come to e editing part..
during capturing,
i alrdy told them dat got errors le..
den asked them if i can dun edit..
but no matter wat..
dey dun allow..
so fine..
i juz edit..
but who noes afta i spent dunno how many hrs editing e scene,
n when i almost finish le,
dey juz come n tell me is juz a rough editing..
dey are going to reshoot..
nice rite..?
afta i spent so much effort editing,
dey come n tell me juz like dis
tell me..
how can i nt be angry?
okie..
nvm abt dat..
another scenior..
yst dey all had meeting except fer me..
well..
surely i will feel sth weird is going on rite?
dats nt part of sensitive bahx..
den afta deir meeting,
its time fer me n onli me..
yup..
guess wads their first sentence dat dey told me..
"do u still wan to be editor?"
gd qns ask rite..
at e starting,
i alrdy told them le..
but dey still indirectly force me to become editor..
n now,
afta i put in so much effort,
dey ask me e qns..
so i juz replied them,
"u shld ask me e qns way time ago"
but wad i get back was nth but attitude..
guess wad dey told me?
dat e editing rate is slower den filming rate..
nice sentence rite?
n wads more..
dey juz kip on saeing without thinking how i feel...
eg: though millie does nt noe anything abt art director but she still does her best..
e same goes to kaihui who comes frm photo team..
dey dun blame dem if dey did anything wrong..
n dats true..
but y dey doesnt blame them?
cuz dey are all blaming me..
everything dat leads to slow editing is my fault..
b4 e editing,
i alrdy said cannot edit le..
but dey didnt care abt it..
n wats more..
dey alrdy plan to reshoot..
a waste of time rite?
n becuz i hafta edit dat errors scene,
i slowed down in my capturing n editing of other scene dey shoot..
n it was all my fault..
well..
everything is juz my fault..
y dun dey think first b4 reproaching me?
imagine if dey didnt shoot wrongly n hafta reshoot..
imagine if dey didnt force me to edit e errors..
will all dis happen?
doubt dey will think of dat..
cuz editing is e job of e editor..
so anything dat has to do wif editng is all e editor fault...
sigh..
maybe i shld juz quit sva..
nobody cares abt my existence at all..
juz another 2 more incident will explain totally y i felt like dat..
firstly, deir dislike of vb team..
dere was a hall scene which we nid to shoot dat dae,
n we booked e hall le..
but dun think e vb ppl noes..
so dey went to use e hall fer training..
den when dey went dere to film n ask them to leave..
dey gave dat attitude face according to them cuz i wasnt dere when it happened..
yup yup..
so during e shooting,
i had nth to do..
so i went outside to see e vb gals train..
n guess wad?
dey ask me to come back to e hall n juz sit dere n do nth..
n no matter wad,
dey wun let me out of e hall..
well..
do dey care how i feel?
no!
cuz another time when we nid extras..
i suggested asking e vb ppl cuz dey were having camp..
n dey juz gave me attitude..
dey noe dat vb was 'once' my 2nd cca..
so i will have lots of interest in it..
n dat i noe e gals in vb..
but dey hafta drag me into e conflicts which dey hav..
without thinking how i feel..
k..
forget abt dat..
another incident..
which happen yst oso..
dey all went out fer lunch..
e whole lot of them..
juz dump me behind n went out fer deir lunch..
dey almost forget abt me..
until last min my lao po den ask me wad do i wan..
n wad does dis shows?
dat dey dun give a damn abt my existence at all..
dey dun care if im hungry anot..
dey dun care how i feel..
dey dun care abt anything dat concern me..
so afta all dis..
is sure best dat i quit sva rite?